I'm 40......

So there comes a point in your life when you realize a critical fact about yourself. Sometimes more than once. My first hit me today. I was at dinner with friends and we were all talking about how our days had been and what all we had done. Each goes around the table with various stories such as how they woke up and went for a run, or had just waken up after lunch, or how they had spent the morning typing and other things. I tell them that I have spent the day watching True Blood Season 2 and was currently in the middle of watching "Something's Gotta Give," which is one of my favorite movies by the way. I ask if they have seen it and get the most disgusted response, which I found shocking because it is a great movie, and is critically acclaimed I might add. They discussed how it was for old people and when telling them to watch it, they responded that maybe they would when they are 40. .... I sat and thought about this and became somewhat hurt at the notion but not completely offended. It was almost as if they were calling me old. So it got me thinking. I am currently 19 years old, about to be 20, and a freshman in college. Apparently the normal age for a college freshman is around 17-18 years old, approaching 18-19. So I'm only around 12-15 months older than most of these students. I have always had this problem though since middle/high school, and it comes with its pitfalls. Yes, I get to do most things before others such as drive and eventually yes "drink." But when these things approached for me they were never a big deal. In fact, I didn't actually want to drive. My reasoning: it is a major risk that I would be undertaking everyday. I could die. Not the typical teenage response which is generally, "Yay! Now I can go to the mall and drive all my friends around and listen to loud music!" Is this normal? Anyone who knows me can tell you that I have an incredibly high maturity level. I like the finer things in life, the classier things. Yes, I do like videogames and horror movies, but I read adult fiction, critically acclaimed novels, and watch movies which win/are nominated for awards. My ideal evening would be to have an amazingly nice dinner, return home, watch primetime television, watch the evening news, and then read in bed until sleepy. This doesn't sound like a teen does it. It sounds like an old person. Now trust me, I do not dress old. But I do not dress super young. My wardrobe consists entirely of oxford shirts either from Ralph Lauren, Banana Republic, J. Crew, or Gap. Corduroys, Chinos, Jeans (Dark), and various slacks. Most days I wear Jeans and a button up shirt, sometimes with a tie, my latest trend. Silk knitted ties from J. Crew. But like now, I am sitting on my bed in my dorm, shutting out the world blogging. All the while listening to a musical arrangement from Something's Gotta Give. Could I appear any more older? I guess I fit the description of an "old soul." Also today, I was looking at houses in the Hamptons. Yes, THE Hamptons. The place where famous people have homes. It's such a beautiful area and I could see myself retiring there. I can literally envision a life there. Working, coming home from work, cooking dinner, walking on the beach, coming in and reading, and then going to sleep. Paradise. I'm just way ahead of myself. Is this a bad thing? Anyone? Out there?